Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Back in Action
So, it's been a long while since my last blog. My monitor quit working so I had to get a new one. Not too much has been happening, so don't have alot to catch up on. Here are some fun pictures from our little outing to paint pottery! Levi loves outings with his friends!!
Monday, November 9, 2009
China
God never meant for me to go.
I'm not sure why this finally dawned on me today. Afterall, it's been almost three years after I signed up to go and then ended up not going. But it has great significance in my life.
Many people don't know that it took us a while to get pregnant the first time. Ten months to be exact. Ten very long, sad, stressful, apprehensive, hopeful, spiritual months. I felt just about every emotion possible during those long months, but God had a plan and He knew what He was doing.
The first few months were easy and very hopeful. However, after the third and fourth cycle the journey became a little bit harder to deal with and to understand. Something like this is really hard for me since I am a control freak. This was one major thing in my life that I could not create or control myself. It was all up to God. Why was it taking so long? Would it ever happen? What was God trying to teach me? Throughout the whole time I thought I was "giving it to God" but it wasn't until I actually stopped "trying" that God blessed us!
In December of 2006 I decided to go on a missions trip to get my mind off of everything. I decided to give up tracking my cycles, taking my temperature, and everything else along with it. Well, not everything, everything, just the tracking part. ;-) Anyhoo (I think my dad reads this so we're leaving that at that) the China trip was going to take my mind off of it. I fell in love with the idea of going to China. I never before in my life thought I would want to go, but the more I learned the more I knew I was meant to go. Instead of praying to get pregnant and for strength to get through infertility, I started praying for the people of China and our group for the trip. I prayed that God would change me and make me like sphaghetti - flexible. God was preparing me. I thought he was preparing me for a trip to China, but He never intended for me to go. At least not then.
In February of 2007, a whole weekend was dedicated to preparing for the China trip. The group met and we went over all the necessary information and we were given instructions on how to prepare. Vaccines were an important part of traveling, especially to the remote area we were going to. Funny thing, my last menstral cycle before getting pregnant was the weekend we had the meeting. By the time I found out I was pregnant and talked to my doctor about the situation it was too late to get the necessary vaccines. The trip was just too risky for me to go to China while being pregnant, as it would have taken place during my second trimester. Had I taken care of my vaccines right away, I probably could have made it happen. As excited as I was to be pregnant (finally) I was very sad to not be going. At first I couldn't understand why God put me through all the excitement and preparation for a mission trip to China only to have me not go. But it didn't take long to realize that in blessing me with a baby, I truly needed to let go of control and let God handle it. What a blessing. Not only did my dreams come true of becoming a mom, it was a blessing to see God working in my life. He loves me enough to teach me and grow me along my journey to motherhood.
It didn't dawn on me until today that God never intended on me going to China. I mean, I figured it out, but it really just hit me. God is so awesome. He's so wise and so loving. He wants to bless His children. I am so thankful that He chose to bless me, in a million ways.
I'm not sure why this finally dawned on me today. Afterall, it's been almost three years after I signed up to go and then ended up not going. But it has great significance in my life.
Many people don't know that it took us a while to get pregnant the first time. Ten months to be exact. Ten very long, sad, stressful, apprehensive, hopeful, spiritual months. I felt just about every emotion possible during those long months, but God had a plan and He knew what He was doing.
The first few months were easy and very hopeful. However, after the third and fourth cycle the journey became a little bit harder to deal with and to understand. Something like this is really hard for me since I am a control freak. This was one major thing in my life that I could not create or control myself. It was all up to God. Why was it taking so long? Would it ever happen? What was God trying to teach me? Throughout the whole time I thought I was "giving it to God" but it wasn't until I actually stopped "trying" that God blessed us!
In December of 2006 I decided to go on a missions trip to get my mind off of everything. I decided to give up tracking my cycles, taking my temperature, and everything else along with it. Well, not everything, everything, just the tracking part. ;-) Anyhoo (I think my dad reads this so we're leaving that at that) the China trip was going to take my mind off of it. I fell in love with the idea of going to China. I never before in my life thought I would want to go, but the more I learned the more I knew I was meant to go. Instead of praying to get pregnant and for strength to get through infertility, I started praying for the people of China and our group for the trip. I prayed that God would change me and make me like sphaghetti - flexible. God was preparing me. I thought he was preparing me for a trip to China, but He never intended for me to go. At least not then.
In February of 2007, a whole weekend was dedicated to preparing for the China trip. The group met and we went over all the necessary information and we were given instructions on how to prepare. Vaccines were an important part of traveling, especially to the remote area we were going to. Funny thing, my last menstral cycle before getting pregnant was the weekend we had the meeting. By the time I found out I was pregnant and talked to my doctor about the situation it was too late to get the necessary vaccines. The trip was just too risky for me to go to China while being pregnant, as it would have taken place during my second trimester. Had I taken care of my vaccines right away, I probably could have made it happen. As excited as I was to be pregnant (finally) I was very sad to not be going. At first I couldn't understand why God put me through all the excitement and preparation for a mission trip to China only to have me not go. But it didn't take long to realize that in blessing me with a baby, I truly needed to let go of control and let God handle it. What a blessing. Not only did my dreams come true of becoming a mom, it was a blessing to see God working in my life. He loves me enough to teach me and grow me along my journey to motherhood.
It didn't dawn on me until today that God never intended on me going to China. I mean, I figured it out, but it really just hit me. God is so awesome. He's so wise and so loving. He wants to bless His children. I am so thankful that He chose to bless me, in a million ways.
Sunday, November 1, 2009
A Fun Halloween!!
Halloween was so much fun!! Levi dressed up as Elmo and Mallory was a black cat. My beautiful niece, Isabella, was a flower. They all were so cute!! My battery on my camera died just after I was able to take a few pictures of Mallory, so I don't have many good ones of her in her costume, but I did get a few good ones of her in her "daytime" Halloween outfit. LOL!
We started off the day at Waterman's Farm and had so much fun! It was very cold and windy, but we weren't going to let that spoil our family fun! Levi rode Duke, the pony, and we all went on a hayride to pick out our pumpkin! Mallory was all snug in her baby carrier and Levi was enchanted by all the fun things to do. Waterman's has a dinosaur that eats pumpkins! Levi loved it!! He also loved, loved, loved the petting zoo where they had a few goats, sheep, and ducks. Levi calls them seeps. ;) We really had a good time, despite the cold and mud.
We started off the day at Waterman's Farm and had so much fun! It was very cold and windy, but we weren't going to let that spoil our family fun! Levi rode Duke, the pony, and we all went on a hayride to pick out our pumpkin! Mallory was all snug in her baby carrier and Levi was enchanted by all the fun things to do. Waterman's has a dinosaur that eats pumpkins! Levi loved it!! He also loved, loved, loved the petting zoo where they had a few goats, sheep, and ducks. Levi calls them seeps. ;) We really had a good time, despite the cold and mud.
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